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On Being an Adult (part 2)

Being a young adult is not what I thought it would be.

When I was younger, I imagined how life would be when I was older, but I never gave thought as to how I would get there.

But now I am a young adult, and thinking back on the last year, it feels strange. Strange that my life isn’t anything like what I thought it would be. Not in a bad way, just different. When I was younger, I didn’t know that life was made up of the every day. Those decisions we make on a daily basis, the way we choose to spend our time.

The future seemed like something that was suddenly handed to you, and then boom, you have a house and a car and a dog (I’m not even a dog person but apparently I thought I would be at some point).

But I’m writing to you as an adult and I haven’t been handed my future. I’m just given decisions every day, some of which I don’t even feel equipped to make. Most of the time I want an adult-adult to tell me what to do, but when an adult-adult does tell me what to do I get annoyed because this is my life and why are you trying to decide for me? So, you know, gotta love a contradiction.

Do you ever see a kid and just think, wow, what a life? Being able to chuck tantrums in the middle of the shopping center because they didn’t get a donut. Like hello, I want a donut but if I do I get bloated and my skin breaks out and I have no one to blame but myself. Also, donuts aren’t in my budget.

Great.

In a previous post I wrote about adulting (you can read that by clicking here), I mentioned that it felt like there were things I should be doing but I wasn’t doing them and also how do I even know what I’m meant to be doing?

As the year creeps to a close, I still don’t really know. I still have moments when I have no idea what I’m doing and I wonder if I’m the only one winging it.

But I do know that I need to trust in God, and I know that I can always trust Him more than I am.

NaNoWriMo begins today, and as I try to achieve everything I want to this month, I’m reminded that God is in ultimate control and I don’t reeeaallly have to worry. I can be burdened by a never-ending to-do list, filled with the promise of exercise, but in my deepest of hearts I just want to be where God wants me and doing the things He wants me to do.

In saying that, God hasn’t ‘told’ me to do NaNoWriMo, but I know He wants me to work on my writing and be creative and do things that bring joy.

So this month, while there’s plenty of things I want to do, the real goal is to seek the Lord.

And then, you know, write 50,000 words while passing university. Gotta love it.

Sarah xx

By Sarah

My name is Sarah and I’m a twenty three year old who loves Jesus first and foremost, finds joy in the simple things, and appreciates a good metaphor and oxford comma.

I blog three times a week at www.bemy2017.com

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