I will admit, there’s a part of me that just wants to stop blogging.
I really like blogging. I like it so much I paid more money to have this site for another year. Liking blogging is not the problem, and I think that it rarely would be, with anything.
It’s that sometimes it’s easier not to write. Just like sometimes it’s easier not to work hard, or read the Bible, or vacuum.
But on the other side of things, I really want to finish well. I want to run through the rest of the year, and end things on a really great note.
Sadly, my motivation level hasn’t reached my aspiration level.
I think it’s like with a lot of things. For me, anyway. And it’s why I started this blog. Remember? Way back then, I decided to blog every day for a year to finish something. I still have unfinished sewing projects in my room, half written sentences in notebooks.
I started this blog to finish this blog. And now here I am, so close to the end, and I’m beginning to wane. It would be so easy to give up and pretend this blog never existed. To shut it down and move on with my life, probably starting a new hobby in the process.
But I love blogging! So literally the only reason why I’d stop is because it feels hard sometimes? That’s the worst excuse in the world, though it rings true for me in many instances.
As the year slowly creeps to the end, I want to finish well in every area of my life. Study, work, relationships, etc. I don’t want to wane in any area, just because in some cases it’d be easier to just fade away. Fading away sounds good sometimes, right?
I’m going to try and not fade away, campers, because I’m genuinely excited to finish my blog well and start up again next year. (Next year not every day, but at least once a week. As if I could stop.)
How do we finish well? What does that even look like?
Being strong to the end. Putting in effort. Not just doing the bare minimum but keeping up the previous standard. Loving just as much as when it was easier.
We all know what it looks like when we don’t finish well I’m sure. You know in yourself when you’re fading out. Finishing well is making a conscious decision to not do that, even when it’s the easier or safer option.
Right now I’ve got a cold, and all I want to do is nap but if I nap now, I’ll get a bad sleep tonight which would be even worse, especially considering I’ve already napped today. Oh, the pain, the pain of it all 😉